Job whhheeeee

It's been a whirlwind of a few weeks. Sooooooooooooooooooo much has changed at my job it's quite scary. I've never had a job change so much in such a short time. Serving tables is serving tables and if you have only excellence in mind, then it doesn't matter where you are serving at. Changing computer systems and entire pratice management policies in less than a month is crazy. Serving the public still is serving the public-you still smile and treat ALL with respect and kindness. But the technical aspect is so different. I know it will get better and someday someone will figure out exactly what we need this program to do so it fits us the best, but daily memos of 'do this instead' is so daunting. What did I do wrong now? I hate that feeling. I liked knowing my job in and out and doing it well. I guess I'm afraid there will always be something I'm doing wrong. I don't want to cost anybody money. I don't want to cause anyone frustration. I don't want to confuse anybody. I also like the challenge-I just want to know I'm going to win the challenge :) I work so hard and truth be told, I've done a lot of it off the clock just to stay ahead. My girls at work are absolutely amazing and I can't wait to thank them. They decided a lunch made by me and so now I am working on completing the menu. We won't all be together again until March, but that gives me time to do my very best. They are so totally supportive of me and always listening to me gripe when things are rough. And they pitch in and help in the most amazing ways. I am the luckiest girl which is what I tell myself when I get superfrustrated. (yes I meant that as one word!) I've been coasting for awhile at my job and it's good to get rattled every once and a while. I know this change is going to last-the transition period that is-for quite sometime and I need to buckle down for the long haul. I like to go fast and sometimes I need to remember to stop and see the big picture for all the small pictures that are in it. I have a major responsibility on my hands and I need to meet it. I also need to let it go when I'm at home. I just like to play scenarios in my head and think of how I can do better next time I am there. I also need to to better here. Life....WHHHEEEEE

WHHHEEEEE for D

It's been way too long and I am so bummed out. Our computer was receiving a makeover and therefore I had no access to my blog-the horror! This is my first time alone on the computer in 3 days and I am so glad to be back.
This date in my history is very significant. It's a special anniversary of sorts and I need to pause and reflect upon what this day has brought me over the years. I made the most special friend of my life on this date and I will never forget it because it literally saved my life. No, I did not meet honey on this date. He is of course my best friend. This friend I made put me on the path to meeting honey. This friend put me on the path to being who I am today. I have so many fabulous memories of this friend and the times we have shared that I smile every time one pops in my head. We loved, we lost, we laughed, we cried, we shared, we stood by each other in our darkest times. I am still friends with this person. I dearly pray I never lose contact with this person. We are not as close as I thought we always would be. Teenagers have no clue what life is really like. I think there were times we thought absolutely nothing would ever keep us apart. We grew up, we matured, we got married and had kids, we moved, but life has led us to each other again in a simpler fashion. I know I can tell this person anything. I can tell lots of people lots of things and I have many special things only a few people know. Of course honey knows it all, but when I need perspective from someone who once loved me dearly, but now only as a close friend, I can turn to this person. Our friendship has stood the test of time and everything else. We have never uttered a cross word to one another (so very rare indeed). I have never had an ill thought of this person. We both just want the best for each other. Of course honey and I want that for each other as well, but when you live with someone and share a life with them, you are bound to disagree somewhere down the line. (And I would never wish any ill to my honey, but boys can just be boys and girls have their moments and 'nuff said!) I guess it's just been awhile since I properly honored this day in my history and sometimes things need to be honored. I feel the need to pay respect to the person who saved me from myself and the evils in my life. I need to pay respect to the person who made me want to be a better person. D, I salute you and I honor our very special friendship. WHHHEEEEE to you, and I hope to have at least another 17 years :)

WHHHEEEEE for all

Work week is over and I survived. My brain is officially mush, but my body is on its way there so we're good. Supergramma has taken howit for the weekend, and not a moment too soon. I had big plans for the weekend, but they crashed and burned about 10 days ago, but Supergramma still wanted howit, so I asked honey and bribed him with dinner out for just ADULTS and he bit. Then he wanted to visit BRO while I was at work Friday. If Supergramma was going to watch her Friday, why not just make it a weekend visit, cause I'm not getting up early to drive her out there Saturday (original plan) when she is right there Friday. Honey has a hard time letting howit go overnnight. TOTALLY his deal, no one has given him reason to be distrustful-he just likes having howit at home at night. Sometimes the lady needs a break. Sometimes it's nice not to hear a little voice when the sun pops out in the morning. I love my howit with all my heart, but I need to not have to physically care for another human right now. Work stole it all and I need to replenish. Luckily he wanted something from the weekend too so I got what I needed. I love when a plan comes together :) So I started laundry, am waiting for coffee to drip, and am in my therapy session as we speak.
We are supposed to go to the drive in tonight cause when honey got his schedule, by some miracle he got Sunday off. We can stay out late-dinner and a movie it is! WOOT! If we don't make it (that happens a lot) that's ok too, but I'm hoping he'll come home and rest or something so we can really enjoy the evening.
I've been trying to figure out a way to not break the bank, but thank my awsome co-workers. Banana, Regina Phalange, Ladidadi and one we'll call Baby girl have been amazing. Regina stayed late with me last night to finish some time consuming work. It's very simple, just totally time consuming. They have all been there for me and supported me and picked up the slack and did countless good deeds this past week. I think I figured a way to say thanks, even though I literally want to hand them each $100! They keep telling me to stop and they don't mind and I won't feel better till I say thank you properly. I know a few of them read this, so I can't divulge my plan, but having one is good. But another huge WHHHEEEEE to them for being so fantastic. And my boss confirmed that my worst nightmare won't come true, so WHHHEEEEE to her, too! I see my boss maybe once a month? She is always reachable and approachable and she just needs to be where more action is. I'm running things just fine, and with the change happening there are busier places she needs to be. Five offices, 1 person-I'm glad our office is small enough to be left alone. She told me awhile ago she wouldn't be out for awhile-she'll be putting out fires elsewhere. Fine with me, if it ain't broke, don't fix it. I'm glad she trusts me and that a simple phone call to check in is all we need at this point. It gives me more confidence that I'm handling this ok and that helps, too. My worst nightmare is to have a person come to help me. I've had a front co-worker before. It ended badly and I don't want the help. I got it. There is nowhere for that person to work. They decreased the amount of computers I can have so I'm not being EVIL, it's true. No one likes said person and don't give her to me. My boss said that will not happen. Said person fills in on my day off and my key player co-workers are trying to figure out a way for me to work that day too. It's good to be loved. It's also good to know your limits and set boundaries and STICK TO THEM!!!!!!! Especially at work.
I also went to the doctors on Wednesday and I've never felt more cared about. My doc rocks and I love her. Not crazy stalker love, just totally appreciative of the fact someone gets it, understands me and my crazy problem, and wants to get me better. Cure isn't an option at this point, but living better is and she wants that for me. She went above and beyond and even if this doesn't work, it's amazing to me how hard she is trying. It's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun when you don't fit the medical paramiters (sp?) The problem with my problem is that you have to go so S L O W. It would make the lady nuts if it weren't so totally obvious this doc is using every resource to get me to live with this better. It helps that I am a patient patient, but it's easier to do when you feel like someone is in your cheering section. I could go on for hours about my doc, but to put it simply, she ROCKS. Triple WHHHEEEEE to her.
It's been quite a week for the lady, but it's always nice to end on a good WHHHEEEEE.

Day off WHHHEEEEE

I love having Wednesday's off. Work 2, off one, work a day and a half, off 2 more days-very sweet set-up and I couldn't be happier with my schedule. And if there is a Monday holiday-even sweeter. I can get stuff done-laundry, shopping, minor cleaning, love up my howit, sleep in (hahahhahaha), blog, make dr appts (like today)and just have a day to rest if needed. I need it. I'm doing laundry and I have to go to the bank before the dr, and howit is sick of my lovings for the moment and I got her involved in some creative alone time. The past two days of work have felt like at least four. Which isn't bad, but I felt like I worked 48 hours in a row all at once both days. I guess I'm too spoiled w/my schedule and I'm not asking for pity. It's good to be challenged at work. It's even great to learn something new. I'm excited about the change and it WILL be great...operative word being WILL. It's going to take time and I guess I feel insecure that I'm not doing all I should be doing, but I'm only 1 person. And I have done my best to figure out a way not to make the transition harder on the patient. I hate making people wait. I don't mind if I am waiting in a dr's office, but some people can't stand it, and I feel every person's time is important. I just wish there was a way to get more done without costing the company money or taking up my whole day. Oh well, I will just do the very best I can and it will get done eventually. I think I need to figure out the priorities and I would ask, but I don't think anyone knows yet. There are the obvious ones (get the money, get the insurance card, get them seen), but the new little details need a priority list. And I love to multi-task (it's in me-I am a woman, I am a wife, and I'm a mom) and I love to be efficient. And every office is different and I would like to figure it out on my own. I just need more time. Based on what had priority before, I am trying to get an idea from that. But there are about 10 or more extra steps to get a paitent in the system. Once they are in, it will be easier the next time, but the phone and more than one patient at a time, and one computer, and the doctors need help too. I have the best coworkers on the planet and the deserve mad props for being so fantastically wonderful. They support me in such amazing ways-they truly want me to succeed. I don't think I've ever felt such support, caring and appreciation from such a large number of people at once-there are 4 of them, but we are a great team. We are in sync and we know each others work habits so well, that we don't even need to speak sometimes and it gets done. I need to figure out a way to say thanks without spending the major scrillage I feel like spending. Any ideas? I do my best to be just as supportive, but they are truly amazing and I love them. Truly. I have never felt more blessed. If you're reading this, thank you from the bottom of my heart, and I will return the favor when it's your turn. You all rock and are my rocks and I'm glad I have a day off to reflect, enjoy and to you I say...WHHHEEEEE

Shrek????

I did it I did it I did it! I got thru my first day on a new program at work. Was I nervous? More like terrified!!! I've been there for 4 years and now it's all new. And mine is the first job to change-the rest of the office will change in summer. And while the other offices have at least one other person to help and went to the training I did, in my office, it's just me. I WOULDN'T HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY, but it's a lot of pressure :) BUT I have the BESTIST coworkers who I've trained (lol) to answer the phone and we had a discussion on Friday that they would need to be on top of the phone because my focus would be the peeps in front of me. Not so much of a discussion, more of "You're doing this because you love me!" lol A person from the company is with me all week, but I'm proud to say I did all the physical work myself-he supported me, but I did every action alone. That's the best way to learn. I got home SUPEREXTRA late but that was on the boss, not me-so there! And the person from the company called me an "all-star"....so now the song is playing in my head, and I am reciting the words to Shrek in my head-that's how nuts I am....WHHHEEEEE
ps A WHHHEEEEE shout out to Regina Phalange, Banana and Ladidadi-you guys rock!