Many forms of WHHHEEEEE

Some people have lightbulb moments or aha moments. I have WHHHEEEEE moments. They come at random times and sometimes I know they are approaching and other times they hit me out of the blue. I will tell you now that I choose at this point in my life not to afford therapy, therefore I am choosing to blog. It is my journal of sorts. I hope that some will laugh, or at least relate. If nothing else it's my place to vent, hopefully without too much judgement. I welcome comments, positive or negative I guess we all have opinions about something. Just to know someone out there is reading this is kinda cool.
This is in no particular order, and I reserve the right to add to, combine or delete the list as I see it changing. As of this moment the many forms of WHHHEEEEE include:
1. DRUGS...prescribed by a doctor, of course, but if not taken a VERY specific way, I can be WHHHEEEEEing all the way home (or at least for an hour) My head spins so fast, but I feel like I am moving so slow and I have to move with purpose or I will get it wrong-whatever I have do to in that moment. At times it feels dangerous, at times it's a blast. The drugs are for the epilepsy and I am on 3-I have tried and failed 7-9 of them... WHHHEEEEE
2. WORK...Before the epilespy arrived, I was a waitress for 11 years and a freakin' great one at that. In order, Denny's, Peppermill and Hungry Hunter. (Yes, I classed it up a bit as I got older) Time flew durning my shifts as fast as I did....WHHHEEEEE. I work in a slightly less fast paced environment now, but when we're hopping...WHHHEEEEE.
3. THREE YEAR OLD...life through a child's eyes is amazing and fun and is going so fast, I'm just trying to enjoy the ride. She is going to give us a run for our money...WHHHEEEEE.
4. LOVE...I've been with my honey for approaching 15 years (almost married for 9) Those of you in relationships must know what I mean when I say 'time flies when you're having fun'...WHHHEEEEE.
5. SEX...'nuff said...WHHHEEEEE.
6. FAMILY...outside the one in my home-siblings, parents, in-laws-etc,you get it...'nuff said...WHHHEEEEE.
7. FRIENDS...I have this wonderful support system of old friends who knew me before the epilepsy, and the child, and new friends who have only known me this way. I am amazed they still want to be my friend. I have only gotten crazier or more needy. I was a complete giver before this. You needed me and I was there. Money, a couch, a meal, flowers to brighten your day, a phone call out of the blue, cards just because, a ride to BFE, chat in the middle of the night, a shoulder, advice, video taping in the delivery room. Whatever, whenever, I was your girl...Then I got royally screwed (to the tune of over $17,000) by a so called friend. Then the epilepsy. I couldn't work for 18 months because the docs didn't know what it was. Then I got the best job ever. And I made friends there (regina phalange, banana, ladidadi). And some of the old ones (ross, BRO) stuck around. I needed the help then. Advice, a shoulder, a meal, a card, a ride, and they were there for me. What goes around comes around (huge believer in karma right here!) and I do my best to not feel guilty for needing so much help. I still give it when I can, just in a different way, and it's hard sometimes to figure out what that way is. You can't pay your bills? Hold on lady, you will not get that back. How about lunch instead? Better.-It's taken me a long time to realize they will like me if I can't solve all their problems-if I'm just there for them when they need me like they are there for me. I certainly don't expect my friends to cure me, raise my child, I love them for being them. Some of my new friends and I feel certain ways about a certain person/situation. If I could give details, you would too. We've tried to feel and behave differently for over 3 years. Seperately, we've all gotten run down/screwed over by a person in the same way too many times. We're not taking it anymore. We've come to realize it's a lack of maturity that some people are destined to live without. That being said, we are on a slow ride down for our judgements and comments. It is our own cirlce of WHHHEEEEE and we simply can't (ok, choose not to) help ourselves anymore. We've gotten better, but figure lets go down in a blaze of glory because we are most certainly going down. We try to do better in every other aspect of our lives to balance things out. Time will tell if that works. We're all in it together...WHHHEEEEE.
I certainly am blessed to just write about all these things and have the ability to do so. As time goes on I will post about many of these things again. Next time will be about blessings, I think and I know a lot of it will overlap...WHHHEEEEE!